Guy Problem

So do you really think that some one can find their soul mate on line??
I mean, I NEVER believed in stuff like that before. I mean, you cant get to know some one with a screen between the two of you, can you? Well, I've live my life, knowing that well...Internet love isn't possible. So I never gave it a try until that whole myspace thing came along. I created a profile and soon enough guys wanted to meet me. One of the many things I don't do is meet people that I've meet online. Its just weird. Every time I emailed those guys who wanted to "hook up" I would tell that I didn't meet people that Ive meet online and just like they came into my inbox they were out of it.
I didn't mind, really I didn't seeing as how I didn't know them.
There was this guy who had emailed me out of the blue, saying he was moving into Kingsville and read my profile...thinking I was interesting and blah blah blah. I told him exactly what Ive told the other about my rule. No meeting any one I met online. He agreed and I thought that would be the end of it. I figured he would leave me alone and not even bother with me, you know, like the others. Needless to say I didn't think any thing about him at the time. That was about what, six months ago?? He and I have been emailing each other for quite some time now and well, I have come to realize I really like this guy. I mean, REALLY like this guy. Its not love or anything, but I mean, its REALLY like. Ya know??
Anyways...
I log on to my profiled account just to check if I have an email from him and when (or if) I do, I cant help but smile. I have gotten to know him and talked to him via-messenger twice both of those conversations being an hour or so long. I have gotten to know this guy and I cant believe I have realized this but I like him. Some times I feel like some phsyco chick that cant control herself but I know I'm FAR from it. I mean, I'm not crazy. I might be goofy and odd looking but crazy enough to make some one else think I'm crazy...well, that I'm not. lol.
He is the first guy I've EVER been attracted to that I met online. I have gone to the extent of giving him my number, one thing I told myself I would NEVER do and even asking him out.
I don't think I'm making myself clear. I am the most shiest girl in the world. Think of the quietest girl in your class who never talked expect when spoken to...that's me, TIMES A FUCKING MILLION!!!!!! I walk with my head down, I'm scared to meet new people because I'm scared they'll let me down like every one else in my life, I'm the type who would rather read a book than go to a club.
I don't know what to do, I mean, I really like this guy and I even told this guy who asked me out I was talking to some one which is beyond the truth seeing as how I'm single as can be. I mean, I didnt say I was going out with this Internet guy or anything because well, that would just be a flat out lie and I dont think I can lie to some one. I just simply said, "I'm talking to some one" which could be true. I mean, that guy in the mall wouldnt know I was lying. Would he? Urgh. I don't know what kind of hold this Internet guy has on me but I'm starting to feel like I cant break away from it.
I always tell myself that, everything happens for a reason and if he doesn't like me I shouldn't push it but this guy...he's different. I find myself pushing far beyond the line I usually cross. I've only met him once, for a brief moment but didn't realize it was him until he was gone.
I don't know what to do about him, its like I'm watching on of those romantic movies and just when the movie is getting good and I'm at the Edge of my seat...the power goes out and the movie is no longer there.
What do you do when the movie your dieing to watch suddenly, well, isn't there??
I hope that made sense...